Twas a very complex day today.

People have their own issues and I’m merely here to observe, best if I could help.

The highlight of my day was that, I had another realization of a lesson. Realizing that someone I’ve been friends with for quite a while, to have something more to offer from her world which I am starting to be a part of (somewhat) and it’s quite an honorable thing on my understanding. Realizing that it’s not just all this and that, but it really is more than what meets the eye.

Thing about relationships, I’m not quite sure what’s my take on it and who am I to be some pretentious Love Guru to know it all, but I’m not. Just basing on my own experience, but of course it is far off from what the person is having. I’m just saying what is.

I somehow felt useless for I wasn’t able to give a quick-fix on the matter, but knowing that I am there I believe I helped. Only thing is that… I have that need to want to do more than what I can give, but haste makes waste so I’ll just have to wait and see what goes. 

I can’t even believe myself, immersing myself into another person’s world and I’ve done that since time immemorial and I know I wasn’t quite the mature one back then than I am today. I’m just happy to be there for the person I care for (starting to be the most) and if she finds happiness in me then why not make things a little better. 

How could someone be taken for granted? I am still baffled myself, as to why a girl like her would be crying when she deserves to be happy and away from all the burdens. I fully believe she deserves no stress, but only the best; if I can do something about it then I really would. I gotta start with something, like making her happy for example.

(There’s so many things going on in my mind right now. That’s why I like to do and learn a lot of stuff, I want to make sense of everything to be a learning experience because I tend to over-think things and it gets me in a not so good mood.)